Life

Uncertainty

The last day of the month, and 6 months of the year has passed. Every day brings new surprises and challenges. New questions and choices. We await the unexpected, certain that news could change everything. We make mistakes and ask forgiveness, even of ourselves and our maker. We look back and we look ahead. I’m […]

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Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

It’s an interesting thing, time. Looking ahead, looking back, trying to be focused on the present. We move forward and then get pulled back. Like waves in the ocean. We think of all that can be, that will be, that should be. Then we think of all that was. How difficult it is just to […]

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Time vs Money

I’ve been thinking about the balance of time versus money. I started consulting to create flexibility in my life, but I’ve also been grateful to do well financially also. That being said, I’ve given up even more lucrative opportunities for that flexibility. To me, and for me, it was worth it. I was talking with […]

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Bobo

6 months have passed this past Saturday since I lost my very best girl, Bella. My heart hasn’t healed and still loss has come again. Yesterday I learned that Bobo the cat is no longer with us. He wasn’t mine exactly, but he was mine more so than anyone else and I loved him. We […]

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1/2 of a Year

Time is a strange thing. The clock never stops for you. Minutes turn to hours, hours to days, days to weeks, weeks to months, and months to years. It’s inevitable but it doesn’t make it easier. It’s been 26 weeks today since that fateful Thursday. Exactly one-half of a year since Bella left this world. […]

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Life and Living After Loss

The sixth (and most newly recognized) stage of grief is finding meaning from loss.  I have cycled through all of the stages of grief, many times over, since Bella left this world. I still really miss her and I always will. …Do you know what Bella taught me in all of this? The meaning I […]

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Remaking of Life

“Grief is in two parts. The first is loss. The second is remaking of life.” And so began this project for my sweet girl. I promised Bella I would bring her home to our garden, and I wanted something to commemorate her that would last my lifetime and beyond. I had considered marble as an […]

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Happy Birthday in Heaven and on Earth

Today is Sammy and Bella’s 11th birthday. They were born November 14, 2010 to an outside mama cat, rescued by Sheny, a friend and fellow shelter volunteer for Happy Tails Pet Rescue. 2 boys and 2 girls. Today we celebrate the birthday of the 2 girls in heaven, my sweet Bella and her sister, Luna […]

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6 Weeks and a Lifetime

To say the last 6 weeks have been hard would be an understatement. For those that read my tribute to Bella, followed by her journey from this world, you can imagine why. Bella wasn’t just a cat. She was a furry friend. She was my best friend. She was family. She was my loyal companion […]

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What Really Matters

Nothing makes you realize what doesn’t matter, when it becomes so clear to you what does. I started chronicling my Bella’s kidney journey in late July. I thought it was important for everyone to be aware of how quickly things can change and how important it is to trust your gut. And still, even if […]

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